Hmmmm

So every school or daycare that I’ve looked into about possibly working there as some type of assistant wants at least 12 ce credits. I’ve always wanted to be a teacher but have put my wants aside. I’m also realistic and now that with three kids and no one to watch them it’s not really something I can do. But I’m thinking that maybe I can do it part time online. Just a thought, not jumping into anything because I can’t financially right now but now that the possibility is there I might look into it later.
On a side note. I started getting chest pains again today. It better not be because I went walking. But let me tell you pushing a 4.5 yr old and a 1.5 yr old in a double stroller is hard and then carrying Shawn in my carrier. I had a good work out with that even though it was a short walk. I have a feeling it has to do with my weight. When i get heavy I start getting chest pains and well I’m slowly gaining weight. I hate my body. Why can’t I just stay at the weight after I have a baby and not gain only loose. Every time I pop a kid out I do GREAT and loosing all the baby weight but after about two months it always creeps back up. I hate my body. I am so scared of ending up obese. But man I have no motivation to get off my ass and do anything about it. I just let it get to me and get me down and that’s it. Ugh I make myself sick sometimes.
Okay done with the pitty party. I think it’s bed time now.